SPEAK

I have always wanted to speak what's inside my mind,
but,
I don't want to hear the same thing ever again,
like,
"You have to be strong, you need to be strong, get some rest if you are tired, I really want to be there for you..",
I don't want to hear this anymore,
because the words don't even reflect on the actions that they show to me.

I always feel there is a missing piece in me,
but,
The more I think of it,
I feel hurt,
It doesn't make me feel better.

So, I make myself busy to stop from thinking about the missing piece,
I have always wanted to be comforted,
I have always wanted someone to help me getting rid of the insecurities in me.

This is because,
when the insecurities start to suffocate me,
I feel like giving up,
I forget about the self-love,
I forget about it.

How would I remember anything about love when I don't even know how to love and to be loved.
Little by little,
the insecurities start to engulf the inner me.
I can never tell other people about how I've felt,
By the look on how they react, I will never do that.

I may be wrong,
but,
what can I do?
I want to be free from this feeling.
How do I do?
What should I do?

-shws